The first time I tried to canter, I was riding a touchy light mare. It seems whenever I ride a light horse, I end up flying... they want to go fast and I want to go with them. When Charlie started to go, it felt like I was being tossed in the air over and over again. The sensation, and the speed, were such that I couldn't think of anything to do but stop. As soon as I recovered my senses I pulled up and cowardly went right back to a walk. I wanted to try again, but there wasn't time. I tried again the other day. I knew what I was getting into, so I didn't panic about starting the canter... and to my surprise, it was a much smoother ride than the jog (which is bouncy, but familiar). I had some time to adjust to the feeling of the ride and realized part of my problem. In order to feel secure, I had been requiring a firm foundation. Once I felt comfortable that the saddle wasn't going to fall out from under me, I could start really riding. But in the canter, sitting is not an option. You're flying. Your body is being moved without your immediate consensus, and it's being moved to midair. If you're going to ride, you have to put your heels down and start pushing, and skip the step of being comfortable altogether. If you wait until you're ready, you'll never go.
I'll be perfectly honest here for a moment. I like to make sure that things with my name attached are of a certain quality of make, design, thoughtfulness, comprehensibility and responsibility. The internet in general is not the natural habitat of those qualities, and this blog in particular is a vile wasteland where their unluckiest seeds drift onto the scorched and ash-choked earth, grope blindly for life through the putrid smog for a few torturous moments, then die in blind agony as the fetid, poisonous air seeps into their very essence and burns them from within.
In an alternate metaphor, this blog is my margin. (Margin is one of those words that stops looking like a word after a couple seconds.) If you want something of substance, look elsewhere. (Perhaps somewhere off the internet altogether.) And no, I haven't put my name on it and I haven't told anyone about it. So you're either reading this completely at random, or because you wanted to know if I had a blog and knew exactly how creative I am when thinking of aliases and exactly how willing I am to pay for site space, or because you're stalking me and you've stolen my laptop to see where my bookmarks lead, or because... giants? took over the world? and you're--no wait--I was the sole survivor? and I kept a record of the takeover Cloverfield-style starting in a few posts? and eventually I went insane as a fugitive of the giant gestapo and either went down like the book version of I Am Legend or just recorded my sad yet enlightening decline into madness until the last entry is some lame recovered memory that bursts in right before I die, like The Awakening? Please say it's the I Am Legend one. Please?
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